with apologies to Sue

I meant to post a quick comment on sue's blog, but accidentally went off on a rant. when my eyes finally cleared, i stopped myself long enough to take my point back here, where i won't hog up her space. Her post was about gay marriage. she is for it. i am for it. we are both heterosexual women, married, and of an age that can get away with speaking our minds. although i am older. I do not see why there is a discussion about gay marriage at all. i just don't. when 50% of hetero marriages are ending in divorce, it's clear WE don't have it figured out. maybe we could take a lesson. maybe if there's a comparison group, we'll see that no one has it figured out. who knows? but why is this such a big deal? The only argument i've heard is that it is against God's word. but if marriage is not necessarily a religious station (many city hall marriages among opposite sex) then why are lawmakers even involved? There is no prayer in school because God's name is used. No pledge of allegiance - God again. no "christmas" pageants - yup, ditto. so how can the same lawmakers that are intent on removing God from public places now turn around and name-drop for this issue? i don't get it. i am particularly bitchy today for many reasons, which i will share here, but are likely to bore you. first, it has been a difficult cigarette craving day for some reason. second, i am tired, and third, i am watching my sweet diva try to find her way out the door of the studio and has walked into the same wall twice. i am pre-mourning her. and mostly, i am lonely. my friend from SAW, Mary, was in town for a few hours today, and we had lunch, saw my show, she loaded me up with presents and we shopped and shopped. she is wonderful. and i knew, i just knew, that when we hugged goodbye, and she headed back to the airport, that the waterworks would start. and they did. by the time i got to mom's house to pick up diva, i was a mess. i love Mary, and if you met her, you'd love her too. she is gentle and gracious and sweet and put up with my tendrils of conversational vapor all day as the chantix stole my trains of thought. but i didn't realize how much i missed the camaraderie and deep friendship up close until we spent the day together. There are few people where i live that have the same understandings...that can be called for a cup of coffee or a movie or an art date. there just isn't. my friendships run deep, but i miss the face-to-face latte or glass(es) of wine and a camping trip. I told her that her visit filled my soul today, and i don't think she realizes just how much. it was so good. but sort of like when the best book you ever picked up is almost done. but greedy me. so let's toss in a stressed out and absent husband, and you've got the makings of a Grucci Family festival of lights. so the week goes. Saturday is the annual Radisson garage sale...300+ houses participating. If you have a hankering for what someone else doesn't want, this is the place to be. but be here Very Early. and bring a water bottle. that's all for tonight. i've done enough damage.