the BUG

i promise i won't post a picture of the hugest, most unusual bug i discovered bulimia cat playing with while i tried to have a gentle conversation with my Rock Fairy, but suffice it to say it was a cross between a Sikorsky-sized dragonfly and a wasp...a veritable 4-winged, stinger-ready, Very Angry flying menace of a thing that i almost stepped on. once the thing was photographed (large format) and released to an area with a large landing strip (my deck), i looked up "wasp" in my Animal Spirit Guides book, since it made such an unusual statement just by being in my livingroom...a "can't miss" clue, perhaps, to a message. maybe not, but if the book said what i wanted, then i'd believe it. now, lately, i've been feeling rather like i'm chasing my tail...a sort of vaporous, half-thought of a plan for my life...Make Art And Sell It, does not a business plan make. and then i saw a note on the squam site that Jennifer Lee was going to be giving a presentation, and something clutched in my heart. which is unusual. as the thought of filling out forms for biz plans and taxes makes me join bulimia cat. but this was Totally Different...her plan recognizes that right-brainers need different tools, or rather the same tools but presented a different way. (i'm getting to the wasp). and i knew, after checking out her site Thoroughly, (because there are a load of people out there ready to cash your check and tell you how to be a success, when their success has been only to cash people's checks and send out some vaporous, half-baked statement that will not pass IRS inspection) that i had to work with her...that i need a goal, and that i need to begin to honor my craft in a serious way. so, the wasp-ish thing...okay the short version of what the book said was this: "whatever task is before you, jump in and go for it with enthusiasm and determination...whatever you've dreamed of doing, put some plans into action that will help you realize them..." yep. it said that. wowa. so i emailed Jennifer, and i ordered her book from the store down the street and I downloaded the free download worksheets (except for the spreadsheets, because oddly, the Microsoft Office package that came with this computer was just a trial offer that expired.) so now i feel like my dreams and goals have a chance of realization. and i can actually make Big Girl Goals. i am placing a lot of faith in you, Jennifer. no pressure. just my life. don't even think about it. carry on.