beautiful liar

well, the talk went....undecided on my part. a huge thunderstorm blew outside and i couldn't hear a word. i'm sure there was a huge storm inside, as well. youngblood claims he stopped last week and that yesterday was the first day he felt he had things whooped. do i believe him? i'd like to. but i know cocaine is a beautiful liar. and it becomes your first, then only, love. you will lie, stea, cheat, whatever. because it takes you. so i am hoping for the best, but i will keep a suspicious eye out. the parents want to believe. the girlfriend, in my opinion, is a strong and brave girl. to call and get someone involved was a huge risk on her part. and she took it. and i hope she understands what incredible character that showed. i will be sure to tell her when i see her. for now, i am tired. and tomorrow brings an early day. why is it that i get up at 4am on any day except work days and enjoy meeting the day? but on monday, tuesday and thursday....i'd rather sleep till noon! husband is looking at a job prospect with another company that will increase his salary by over 20k....and increase his travel time as well. i told him at that point i will quit my job completely and divide my time between art and travelling with him. otherwise, this marriage has no point if he's gone mon-fri. We'll see. i started a wearable art piece today that's been brewing and flitting through my mind for 2 years. not too much pressure! my shower meditation yesterday pulled the whole thing together, and i now realize that if i would have started it sooner, it would have been a lesser piece. the part that was missing was the starting point. so hopefully pictures soon. a hint...involves A TON of hand beading. which i love because it's somewhat portable. more so than a chunk of rusty metal and a soldering gun! so sleep well y'all....and gail - huh? ok. L.