the night of intervention was a sweetness that was unexpected. the cards were laid on the table, and conditions and expectations unmasked and taken from foggy interpretation and spelled out (literally on paper). in order to go to europe, 4 simple conditions must be met. and those conditions were deemed fair by stepson with the dark purple circles under his eyes, and accepted immediately. he is still very much a boychild screaming quietly to be heard and held and seen and understood. and when those he looks to most rushed past and around him, he took a step this way and that way to gain attention. and then 2 steps, then 4. till finally, he was caught at the edge of the cliff, and pulled back. one condition will include counseling. my entry onto the list. to be started tomorrow. and to continue 2 times a week. or no trip. no excuses. time is too short. it was a good night. and today's harmony melded with the soltice...a spark more brightness. thank you all for your good vibes, prayers, listening ears and yarn. tonight, i will scratch my diva's belly till SHE'S done, and knit. my word for 2010 still feels right: authenticity. no - make that Authenticity. yeah. what's your word? L.