a visitor today...

"you have much more available to you in terms of skills, experience, and inner strength than you're aware of."

after shoo-ing him out of the garage and back to his home, a baby squirrel came to watch me.  just sat there an arm's length away, curious.  while he was hypnotizing me, a chipmunk ran into the garage, and the rodeo began again.
I'll be honest with you, there are days like today where i am filled with tumbled emotions.  days where i wake up filled with eagerness to get a project going, or continued, and by 9am I'm flat out ready to shut it all down and nap the day away.  i try in fits and starts, and maybe get a thing or two worked on, but the big plan is pretty much down the drain.  just like that.  today i had big ideas about what the day would look like, but it became painfully obvious by 9am that i had no more control over my day than i did over the weather.  a mechanic appointment set my time back when his shuttle driver was wicked late, and blah blah boring blah.  if i'm not engaged in a project by 9, then forget it.  i may as well do laundry.  except there was none.  i had it all folded AND put away.  so let's see how things go after dinner, which is my 2nd most creative time of day.  hopefully i won't get depressed over the first half of the day going to hell, and dump the 2nd half.  how very pathetic.  but i'm being honest here.  and it's time to eat something - hopefully more nutritious than lunch, which was a nectarine and a popsicle.  yeah, i know - a possible link, you think.  it is a little sad to find out that someone you trusted at face value has actually worked behind the scenes to make sure you aren't hired at a particular company.  i guess at least i know it wasn't my skills, experience or inner strength :)  onward.  or as my friend Wendy Ellertson says:  adventure on!
Oh - pick up a copy of Mingle magazine, and go to the story (written by my incredible friend Christine) about Squam.  that big black & white photo?  I'm in there.  :)  what a sweet time.  sweet and gentle and rocked me off my foundation, threw me down, looked me in the eye and said We Have Some Things To Discuss.  and we did.  and now...